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May 6, 2008 - I'm not the Center

I was in the middle of something when it dawned on me that I was not the center. I stopped everything. I stepped off center and experienced the flow continuing unimpeded.

I thought, "Wow . . . I'm not the center! I only need to get off center to be centered." It was only AFTER I stepped off center that I could see how before, I had thought I was THE center. Ha ha ha! Ridiculous! Laughable! . . . As if I COULD control anything!

GOD is the Center. I thought I was the center. I thought I needed to be the center! I thought I was supposed to be the center! Wow. EVERYTHING I'm looking for waits for me off the Center. I thought I was supposed to occupy the command post. I thought I was the captain of my ship! Not so. Not at all.

I'm a supporting role, not the leading character. Interesting, isn't it? Prior to this, I was the center of everything I thought, did, felt, believed. Now, it seems that an enormous weight has been lifted off me and I really don't have to do anything but step off the Center.

For a moment, I pictured myself standing on a circle, the circle of control, the circle of decision. (I also saw myself standing on God's head — if he had one — when I tried to occupy that position). I believe I need to do EVERYTHING. I need to size up situations and make the correct judgments. I'm not connected to anything but my perceptions of truth. I'm in constant stress when I stand at this post.

When I step off the Center and stand NEXT to the Center, I've just allowed it to extend to me. I'm now the outer ring around the Center. I'm hugging the Center for my Life. It feeds me when I return to my "place," my True Identity as One with God. The Center is the Source of everlasting life. I am not the Source, yet I am an extension of the Center.

The flow needs to continue from the Center, extending out so that Love collects all within Its path. I merely need to get out of Love's Way so It continues through me and by doing that, I join with God's Love and extend with It.